Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens up your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build all these defences, you build up a whole suit of armour, so that nothing can hurt you. Then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your life... You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own any more. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying alone in the darkness. A simple thing like ignoring you or taking you for granted turns into a splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts, it truly does. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart hurt. I hate love and will never believe in it ever again.

Don't ever ask me to smile again in THAT person's presence ever again. It can't be done. AND, I was NEVER in love, with ANYONE. GET THAT RIGHT. Don't piss me off.